What an experience! I can't wait to get back in the swing of things. So I am doing a reading series on women of the bible through Rachel Olsens site. We are starting with Eve. Bible verses are Genesis 2:18-3:24. Do you ever wonder if God might be holding good thing out on you? A: There have been times in my life when I feel as though God is holding good things out on me. I have asked " When is it my turn?" "Don't I deserve to be happy?" And yet I know without a shadow of a doubt that God has a plan for my life. Jeremiah 29:11 comes to mind; "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Now if I could always hold onto this even in my times of despair and helplesness. Do you ever fear that following God's orders fully will cost you more than you care to give up? A: Gosh, I can't even count the times I've feared God's orders will cost me more than I want to give up. One such time is happening now in my life. I have always dreamed since I was a young child of becoming a teacher. I took the steps...went to college, took the test (PRAXIS..one of the scariest things ever), and I prayed about this path for countless hours. Yet here I am a college graduate with a teaching license and not teaching. Now God did fulfill a dream I didnt even know I had...becoming the future Mrs. Mark Corradi. We are in the process we are engaged, planning the wedding, but I made mistakes. Markand I are very much in love and blessed but have come upon hurtles. I made mistakes with money and am now trying to figure out how to make everything come out happily ever after. So here is where it all comes together. I am not sure I can teach (at least not by this coming school year) and marry Mark (by June 2009). Mark and I have been together going on 6 years I love him with all my heart and want to make our relationship a priority. But at the same time I dont want to give up on my dream of teaching..I want things NOW! If I dont get a teaching job for next school year (2008-2009) I will lose my teaching liscense plus I really have a desire to teach. So here is what I have decided. I am going to pray for God to guide my life. I know that God has a plan for my life. As Rachel Olsen stated in her blog " I can follow God's orders with complete trust that He has my best interests in mind and at heart." Dear Lord, Please be with me, guide me. Allow me to be strong for you. Amen. | 
